First, I am a pan-sexual woman with severe ADHD and a sprinkling of BPD. If I have a meltdown or an episode, I am VERY sorry. Let me take 5, and I can apologize and be a reasonable human being again. None of this is an excuse, but it at least explains it. I assure you, I will be tearing myself apart with guilt and embarrassment for far longer than is healthy. I would be eternally grateful if you could have a little patience and not pour fuel on the fire. I would never wish any of these disorders on anyone. I will do my best.
Who am I? That is always a difficult question to answer as self introspection can be a rather painful and difficult exercise. I don’t believe we are always the same. We all change, but we do like to make the same choices over and over. If I had to sum myself up, I am a force of nature who cares too much.
I feel like there are more important issues than obsessing over genitals and monopoly money for the entertainment industry. Maybe slow your roll on murdering people on the other side of the world? How about here too? Improve infrastructure? Housing? Enshrine abortion as a fucking legal right? Wages? Stop erasing the achievements of women and your crusade against dei? I could go on, but my life is already a giant mess this week.
Agreed, this was my first thought. We do not need to make these monsters into a meme. Let them go back into non-existence.
If anyone wants to listen to a 40 minute rant about it, always recommend Angela Collier.
Same. I used the little picture widget to cycle adorable animal pictures all day on my home screen. The one little thing that gave me joy, fucking ruined by corporations. While I don’t have a widget anymore, I at least have someplace I can talk for 5 minutes and have someone listen.
Nothing wrong with getting another assessment, especially if everything was diagnosed at once, or out of order, if that makes sense? Sometimes it takes a bit of treatment/meds to detangle the bin of labels.
At the end of the day, if you can get the support you need and any documentation for the harpies, you are already ahead. Now, getting good support? That costs extra with a side of doubt, some F, and +2 to anxiety.
Pretty much. Beta blockers help the jitters and at least take the anxiety down a couple notches. No idea if I get to add autism to the list, but I wouldn’t be particularly surprised. There is a lot of overlap between the two.
My extra unwanted friend is bipolar disorder type 2. It was great when they put me on Citalopram without so much as a checkup at University. I cut myself off after about a year. Fast forward a few years after to find out that is a very bad idea to give to people who have BPD, not that the university knew what was wrong with me…
You assume I check my email.
Thankfully I suck at that, but holy crap it is prevelent in this industry. The alcohol abuse is cray. Doesn’t help when you travel constantly. I don’t travel much anymore, but the people who spend 90+% of the year in the field, while having a family, are fundamentally broken. Fun to party once in a while, but when they do this shit multiple times a week, I don’t understand.
Does Lua rank far below python for you? I have so much rage against it. At least with Python I don’t have to do a bunch of steps to just get it to do something. May take me a while to get through bad Python code, but Lua makes my eyes bleed and I begin to regret my life choices in trying to understand wtf these people wrote.
laughs in PLC
I always have parking considerations when suggesting places to go. I hate not getting parking instructions. I am perfectly content to park on the street as long as I can find it without stress.
If your backup cam has the little lines that curve when you turn the steering wheel, that will help. Otherwise, practice. Can maybe even get in and out of the vehicle a couple of times to get a good sense of space. Worst case you mess up and have to readjust a couple times.
I second docker. I do use the docker version on my server, but I use docker on my Mac all the time. I really enjoy not having to screw around and have to go through the process of installing certain things and docker desktop on Mac just works. I pretty much use homebrew or docker.
I think once my doctor started charging me money for being late or missing the appointment entirely, the consequences were enough to overcome. The number of times though for this exact scenario… Yeah, been there, done that. Timers, timers, and more timers.
No idea if it will help, as I am going to try it too, but we may need to put our keys and wallet in the good place before going to sleep when we have important things the next day. The only way I ever get to the airport on time is to:
The only other thing that helps me is Tile, so I can at least narrow down which room my keys or wallet is in. The little speaker can get kind of damaged on the wallet one, but the BT is fine.
The worst is trying to explain at how necessary the medication is. Having to explain that I cannot work without it
Not sure it is like this everywhere, but in my state it costs nothing to change your surname when getting married. Updating your social security card in this instance is also free. This is proof enough to vote. You do have to pay a small fee to change your name on your driver’s license/State id and pay around $130 for a passport.
My understanding though (US) is the DEA limits the raw ingredient supply with no regard to the demand by patients. The drug manufacturers get what they get whenever the DEA decides they are allowed to have it.
It sucks having the government decide whether I get my medication each month. It sucks having to submit to drug tests to prove I am taking my meds and not hoarding/selling them. I have a giant stack of paperwork from formal testing I had, which I had to pay for out of pocket because insurance doesn’t cover it. It was something like 600-800 dollars. That is enough dammit. I shouldn’t have to live in fear that my medication will be taken away or refilled late because I can’t even request my refill until the last minute.
My nails are too thin to get long enough to bite consistently, but I would wrap my hand around my wrist and squeeze when anxious. I would have finger bruises on my wrists. Nail polish I just sit there and peel off. Fake nails will be ripped off in 2-3 days, no matter how much it damages my nails, and I also play(ed) string instruments. I still squeeze my wrists sometimes, but I have to be really really stressed out.
As someone on Adderall instead, is it really like that? There is one generic manufacturer, Activis, that I refuse to accept from the pharmacy as I feel like I am tweaking out the entire day and falling apart. Only time I ever refused to finish the bottle and begged the pharmacy to replace it, which they were unable to do.
😅 I had a bad morning, ok?